Things that make me feel disgusting, in no particular order: living through 100* days in October, having heat rash on my neck and chin, being stricken with a random, stubborn dry patch at the side of my nose, fighting off a head cold, breaking out all over the place, and needing to pee all the time (I thought that this might be a possible pregnancy symptom until I realized that I had had three cups of tea and several bottles of water today). I have felt totally exhausted and sneezy all day today and came home from dinner with a friend to find I had two more pimples and bloodshot, contact-dry eyes. Basically I just feel really great about myself right now.
I’m taking a ClearBlue Digital pregnancy test tomorrow morning, which will be 17dpo. I’ve held off on testing since Monday – an amazing feat of patience considering I was all but convinced five days ago that I was pregnant. My two negative results (on Sunday and Monday mornings) disappointed me and took the wind out of my sails. In addition to meaning that I’ll have to do Provera/Clomid again, not being pregnant this month would mean that all my crazy symptoms really were all in my head. And as much as I don’t want to have to do Provera and Clomid again, I really don’t want to have to face that I’m baby-crazy enough to completely fabricate symptoms.
In other news, everyone I know is posting ultrasound photos to Facebook. I hate them, obviously.